Me First! Really??
With much love and appreciation to the Slender Goddess for allowing me to Guest Post …
So it’s a big year for me this year, and my goal (for years) has been to be healthy
(code for thin) for my 40th
Birthday! Well I won’t reach my end-goal
by then but I am working on it!
So let me back track a little …
Hi … I am Overweight and I’m an addict, a foodie, an
emotional eater, a stress eater, a chocoholic, a pastry-a-holic and my sugar
and carb addiction knows no bounds! At
some point in my formative years I learned a scarcity mentality and I have
traded on my genetic ties of being the product of two World War 2 babies … BUT
at some point I have to stop labelling, blaming and claiming it and start doing something about it!
My mother says I am harsh on people who have been dealt and perpetuate
“victim mentality” around life dealing bad hands. We all
have shitty cards dealt us but I firmly believe that at some point we must draw
a line under the hurts and shizz from
the past and say “that was the past and
it does not need to be my future! That
it is NOT going to be my future” and then actively work towards making a new and improved future your new
reality. I believe it is the ONLY WAY! So with all of that flawed principled’ness …
what am I doing about my unhealthy weight, to embrace and devour my
current (and future) dreams and
goals?
Like the start of every new year, we do the obligatory
resolutions and 6 guesses what mine was this year (um like I think the last 17 years or so – but who is counting)! SO I put my brain in gear and gave myself a
firm pep talk, girded my flab and embarked on a managed high protein, low carb,
calorie restricted weight release program (the
eating plan of the moment). Drastic
times call for drastic action!
So I am 6 weeks in and I have learned some major
life lessons:
1. We All Know: This is not rocket science (which of course we all know) it’s a case of doing the maths and working on the
ratio of input vs output. Now although I
do agree with the logic of that statement (after
all I am part Vulcan, pointy ears and all) … I do believe there is more to it than just that, which I am
investigating … more to follow …
2. Management: We all know what we need to do, it
is about putting things into concrete action and getting on with it! But sometimes we don’t know some of the rules (they
seem to constantly change), so it is important to get direction and
guidance. This journey is rarely a
success when undertaken alone.
3. Habit: I’ve learned how much of what and when
we eat is a habit. Are we really hungry or do we eat to fill
the emotion, the silence, the space?
4. P&P: It’s all
about planning and preparation! This speaks to my inner OCD and my Compulsive
Planning Disorder!
5. ME FIRST?!?!: And finally, and possibly the most important of all … I have to put me first and this
one I know many of us struggle
with! Particularly us full-time working
mum’s! How often do we put everyone (and everything) else before us … the
kids, hubby, work, washing, dishes, dinner, school projects, homework, packing
school bags, prepping for the next school and working day, extended family
& friends … and then and only then when everything else is ticked off
on the list … we get round to us! By then
it is 10.30pm and we are knackered – ah screw it!
I’ve realized for this program and ME to be a success, I HAVE to carve that time out of my already overflowing day to MAKE time for ME! To do some exercise (at the moment I have befriended the much feared stairs in my office building for that relegated task). I need to plan ahead, exactly what I am going to eat for the day (and the week to ensure balance and groceries), I must make the time to MAKE the food I am going to take for the day ahead to stay on the mapped program. Early every morning I have to make sure I go get my required 2l of water and then make sure I have consumed it all before 3pm everyday (so that I don’t have a bathroom crisis in the ever worsening traffic home). I must make the time to eat my lunch and do the same with the 2 required snacks to keep blood sugar levels flat.
I have to make me a priority!
It’s never an
easy process, but on most days it is easier than the fear
of the reality. Like a recovering
alcoholic … TODAY, I am strong!
There are more good days than bad and when I enjoy a treat (or 5) I am making sure that I return to the
program. For me, Monday to Friday’s are
fabulous and I can “control” 98% of that.
Weekends are harder … but I am getting there …
My reality is
that for me, there is a long road ahead, but I am learning so much about myself
and surely that is one of our purposes … to learn and evolve?
And daily I
hold onto the quote that “Nothing tastes as good, as thin feels!”
Watch this
space … I’ll return to share more of the unfolding story …
The power is
in our hands!
Warm regards
Hi … I am Overweight and I’m an addict
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